Sunday, May 23, 2010

Went taka today, then to basement to grab some food. Company next, went for TBC graduation. Watch all the videos & i seriously miss TBC lah. Ohwell shall dropped this subject, great disappointment afterall which i don't feel like elaborate much. Took my cert & off to weijian's birthday party, went pasar malam to grab some food then off to wilfred house for pool. ENVY lah, home at 4 plus. Sometimes i seriously got enough!! Basket, too tired already. Human change so fast which is i don't know why, regret! Very very regret, Bastard ahh! ):

1 time 2 time it's enough! >:(

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Yey i'm back,
Alright.. I went to meet up with hweesiong & one of the counsellor in SCS. Didn't know tht my counsellor went america already, i really miss those time whereas every body gather tgt & celebrated our last farewell. I misses those time when we went to some lazer place to play & also to drug prison to test how's the feeling like when we all kana locked up. It's like seriously damn bloody HOT & SMELLY. You pee inside & you sleep inside too, & the cage is super thick! I was so damn sick tht day, seriously misses those time la. Groups gathering makes alot of friends, Dragonboat & stuff. I misses everyone ): Sigh. Plus shuhui counsellor still rmb me, hahaha! nice, shall meet them up for dinner agn. (:

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

PISSED OFF PISSED OFF DAMN PISSED OFF~

Monday, May 17, 2010

There is too many things to regret in life, yes too many.
opportunities really comes once, i really hate tht why am i so stabborn. I shouldn't have be like this in the past i shouldn't, thinking back i'm really stupid la. Sigh! ppl out there, grab hold every opportunities you've. before your are too late to regret, things change so fast. It happen just like a dream, it came so fast & disappeared so suddenly. What is life now? I hated this man, everything i do also failed. Reflection, am i suitable? I don't think i'm.. Argh! FML!

Thing comes & go just happen to be like a snap of your fingure.
You can be the best, but you are not the best of the best.
You can be the champion, but there is still ppl better then you.
ATIITUDE ATTITUDE ATTITUDE, I really really really need some motivation.
I'm v.v.v.v ice cream. Fighting spirit pls~
Pimples love me so much now, i hate it. it's irritating!
It's raining, why i ain't sleeping?

Alright,
Went company, sat ahlai's car to cine.
Arcade few rounds, dine @pasta mania, photo taking & LAST but not LEAST 8hours of kbox with cliques. & Happy birthday zan lai, photo will be uploaded soon. superb moodless today, shouldn't talk much now. night!

Labels: Complicated.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Crack brain crack brain crack brain, Super duper no mood !!
I hope everything will be fine real soon, life is full of obstacles, ups & down. Ohwell, is this fate? perhaps it is. sigh~
Alright i seriously need to on diet soon, i'm gaining weight. have been eating supper late night. Kiamin need to chill herself! So many bad things happen recently, not my days!
& YOU so scare for what, Are you a man? Or ahgua? Fcuker!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

I'm SO FUCKING NO MOOD, GOT SO FUCKING PISSED OFF, GOT SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED. USING MY OWN EYES SEEING ALOT OF BULLSHIT TODAY, USING MY OWN EAR HEARING LOTSA OF BULLSHIT TODAY. WTF has the world turn to? Another obstacles for me to overcome again? EVERYTHING BREAKS MY EMOTION DOWN, I've to control control control. BUT, I've been thinking. Why am i in this trade, why am i doing all this, why is the reason i work in this trade for? REASON, MY FAMILY, MY FUTURE! Every body might think oh i'll never success, it's what they think. I kept telling myself, i shouldn't give up so easily no matter how others look or see me or say me. WTF! I'M WEAK, I HATE MYSELF DAMN FUCKING MUCH TOO. ):

Nobody will understand how it feels, but only me myself. I give up everything, netball, study, relationship. I believe next time hard works will still pays, maybe some ppl might think this is crab. OH WHATEVER. I'm TIRED, EVERYBODY IS TIRED. ARGH! REFLECTION REFLECTION. !!! & I THINK this wouldn't go any better.

itisguoy! ):
idwtbahemhb D:

Monday, May 10, 2010

19th TBC camp had finally ended, but still i misses everything. Every group members, Everybody i should say. Although the time past really fast & the camp date is so short but still i enjoyed myself to the fullest, learning alot of things inside this camp & high element especially make my feet tramble like fish & huishan & me like being torture blueblack & cuts on our legs boohoo~! But my teams nv failed to motivate each other, loves. & i just misses day 1 & day 2 camp, someone is sick. I hope he can faster recover, & i'm so confused. Ah, it's complicated i should say. How i wish you are beside me now, ohwell. hmmm, Today is the day i must not be so jelly already, fight ah!

& i miss my team BUMBLE BEE! ): Hoping there is another outing for our team, & yes i'm glad to meet every one of them. & i misses the night, misses those games we played. Although the performers are not really going well but still we can still fight to win the top 3 for our team :D let's jiayou bumble bee!

Labels: of cos i don't bare to let you go.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Bad bad headache,
I seriously gotta focus & put in my wholeheartedly on whatever i've gotta do now. But i only say but not really doing it. Argh! time flies, 3/4 of the year is gone. & it's the 4th of may already, what am i doing now? Still not doing anything to get started on my groups! Gosh, Badly headaches. & is my expectation high? I don't think so, Next time i want my husband to be smart looking, non smoker, not really educated but got di wei, having big house & cars. Yes i want a husband in the company next time, haha! but well, i wanna open a pet shop lah. With lotsa of puppies, hamster & rabbit. They can just make me smile when i'm down seriously, but inorder to have a shop next time i must must must work doublely hard. Reflect on what thing went wrong everytime, hmmm!

I can't go school anymore, i didn't know i will drop off study during nitec time & i haven get my office cert from school! I decided to further my study when i've the lumsum of money, i so wanna go taiwan. But i failed to do so, next target shall be korea! Yes! & something i would like to highlight on, i think sometimes i'm really stupid, or rather every stuff i did there is always a regret. Somehow i misses my past, i wonder why am i so playful in the past. I wonder what makes me turn to some people i shouldn't be. I wonder why i did those stupid stuffs & get locked up during sec 3 making parents got so pissed over me & worried over me. Schools teachers are madly disappointed on me. Kana sack as a prefect in the past, but well. People changed so do i, sometimes you will think it's funny though. doing alot of dumb stuff it's really stupid la, pon class la, sleeping in class la, play poker card in class & etc..

As for now, this trade really changes my life? making me how to be a better person next time, sometimes ppl are selfish, sometime ppl tends to get mad easily over a small thing. But this is life, nothing we can change. Just yesterday i saw this friend of mine, tuition friend. She really changed alot tilled i don't ever recognise her, we did alot of stupid stuff during tuition time, making teachers get mad over us & called the head to talk to us. So funny but stupid, well. Hmmm i dislike people to create nonsense, being lame & backstabbing ppl, irrtating la, this & tht. I seriously can't tolerate, & yes YOU THIS DISGUSTING CREATURE STOP MSG ME LA DEY. YOU ARE SO DAMN DISGUSTING, FOR GOODNESS SAKE I'M TRYING TO FORGET THE FKING SATURDAY THING CAN!! PLS DON'T MAKE ME REMIND ME OF ANYTHING & YOU ARE INDEED NO MANNERS. FUCK OFF & THANK YOU VERY MUCH! i hope i wouldnt see your number ever appeared in my phone. Stop being a lame shit, i'm not tht close with you. & another thing is, sometime this is N.O.M.B i just don't like to hear this & tht & bla bla bla. It's really omg pls~ Yes you, stop being so disgusting. eeeeyer!

& parents is going overseas soon, means tht i've to stay alone at home D: i don't want na! Really very scary can! but howhowhow, i've to go office sometimes & it's troublesome if i go aunt place to stayover. Hmmm! Jialat! Ohwell, How i wish they go overseas this coming fri to sun! Nobody will be at home how good :\ KIAMIN can't wait for this coming friday camp (YELLOW banana team) Weeee! Alright think my blog it's too wordy already, night!


Label: You.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Should i count myself bad luck?
suckie, i just dislike what nonsense happen yesterday! Freaking bullshit, I can't stop thinking. Sigh~ I will never let this repeat agn, 1 time 2 time it's enough. I'm so dumb so stupid, Yuckie! FISH ): I just feel like punching you, F off pls. Grh! YOU ARE SUCH A DIGUSTING CREATURE! like seriously, i feel bad for S. Really sorry, know you are a little mad ove about th c stuff. BUT S & A save my day like lucky, but well! I don't want this to happen agn like seriously ): Fcuk la, makes me think over & over agn. Eeeyerrrrrrr!!!!

Stop me from thinking pls~
YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU!
i wish you are the past you ):
& i don't wish the same things to happen agn.

Labels: Regret

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Sleepless night seriously kills my mood,
I'm got so agitated easily. Sometimes even tired of smsing, feel like throwing my phone aside. I just don't know why things screwed up & happen on the same time. Damn it! Determination, i should be. But blame myself for not being good enough, damn me. again & again, collapsed. Everybody face difficulties who doesn't ):