I MISS NETBALL TRAINING,
I MISS ALL MY BFF'S,
I MISS GOING TO SCHOOL EVERY WEEKDAYS & STUDYING WITH MY BITCHES.
I MISS WEARING UNIFORM,
I MISS GOING OUT WITH ORLANGERS.

I Miss EVERY SINGLE MOMENT i spent with my cliques, Seriously time flies.
How i wish i could go back to bishan ITE & study again,
B'cos of my morning job i gave everything a missed.
I Lefted mum at home alone, I then realise that it've been super long seen i last went out with her & daddy. ): I'm sorry! I just wish to earn more money & bring them overseas.
But well, this is tough.

I wish I've a car now, & also a licence.
I miss tournament period, I think i suck in netball now. Sigh!
I always think of those awful moments, it's suckie thought.
I miss those laughter i always have when i'm with my cliques.
I hate myself sometimes like seriously.
Life is full of regrets,
I misses the time i go pub to celebrate karim birthday.
But now, I don't know what happen.
Everything got screwed up after sometimes,
Damn, Sometimes i really hope tht time could rewind back to my past happiness.
But No, life is all depends on fate.

Labels: I know this will never happen.

Stress, Fight, Endure!

I've been working nowadays, I dislike my morning job. But i always look forward to my night part time work, Cause there is so much fun & laughter. I always looking forward to grouping session, nice! Ohwell, There is somebody who told me this " today is cruel, tomorrow will be more cruel, the day after tomorrow will be wonderful" Quite true though, but who will always be by your side & fight together with you along this path? People are skeptical nowadays, Yes they are VERY SKEPTICAL. People always wanna enjoy life, but never thought of what they want in future. Or i can say they are not mentally prepare, Confidence is all what they need.

I always face obstacles, But tht is what god gave. God want us to overcome every obstacles by ourself, It's a tough fight. But what to do? Life still goes on, You can forget about time, You can forget about love, But one thing you can never ever forget is what you wanna achieve. If you dare to dream big, there is a way to fulfill it. Best friends will always be there to fight together with you no matter how tough it is (: But well, I will never forget all my besties (:

I'm down with fever last night, i gave work a missed today. I went Ms to find Ch, ahlai, yk. But i didnt know tht Lz is there, well. Singapore is so small, I got so pissed, so down, so disappointed I always feel like giving up, but i know i can't. Things will always come natuarally, yes it does. Sometime only, I ate orea ice-cream with extra oreo to make myself happy. Lol, I've never know tht this kind of things happen. But there is always rejection, & i hate to be misunderstood. Why? i don't feel like elaborate any further, damn it!

sometimes things got so screwed up, as tht is not what you wish. But well, Nothing is perfect in this world. There will always be bad things happen before good things come (= Fight through this war, Take off your SKEPTICAL mindset & you will see success in you life. You will never know when this day come, but just fight for it! If you are willing to learn, willing to commit your time, Have the confidence to fight you will sure see success in the future. Hard works pay!

Damn still gotta work tmr morning, i Hate invoices alot la!

You're Weird, yes you!

I'm addicted to this song: Gao xiao & di ji ge yi bai tian!

SCREW MY LIFE!

I'm so busy recently, work & stuffs. For the sake of my taiwan, sigh! Hmm, alright sometimes i feels something really weird. I don't know how to elaborate this feeling, but it just suck to the core. I don't know what is this, damn! I feel so sleepy, Everyday waking up early. Working till late night, Tired. But i just love night time, i love my company. Ohwell, Thing got so screwed up. Bad, really bad. I seriously dislike this feeling. Sigh! Why why why? Tell me why is this so ? It's like sometimes good, sometimes really bad. Damn!

Labels: Working hard for the opportunities.

Cold

Not intended to go out today actually, but still i went out.
catch a movie "kidnapper" @amkhub today with karim & her friend. Alright today weather was so damn cold. I'm freezing inside the cinema, the show was scary, funny & touching. But overall nice (:

Went chill awhile & home, I'm so tired now. Have alot of things to do, & tmr will be a big day. But i think it will be bored ): Sigh! Ohwell, i'm hungry. Craving for bean curd, Kiamin have to stop eating like seriously.? I'm getting fatter & fatter. Aw!

Labels: Impossible, Impossible, It's so damn Impossible.

Super not free nowadays, Bad things happen at the same time. What's wrong now? Why? this feeling sucks to the core? Working tilled late hours, waking up early. Just to kill my time, I got 46 missed call today. Lol, Accounting seriously not that easy :\

I think i regret taking accounts, hopefully i got into banking. Aw! tell me how? I miss schooling but i don't have the feeling to study, i miss training. I miss competition. I think this is not the right time for me to go into R/s not gonna rush into any relationship now. everything just take time, choosing a right guy it's hard. But whenever i found one, he is not there anymore. Everytime i stand up i fell again & again. Repeatedly, i'm tired. I'm gonna collapsed soon.

I face him everyday, but i don't dare to talk to him. How? i wanted to tell him something, but i think it's useless now. No point, finding lot of people counselling me. Cheering me up, but nah. I'm tired, really tired. Everything turn up so badly recently. Hopeless now, No confidence & nothing. I always take thing FORGRANTED that my fault. Damn myself, if time could rewind to where it was, i will treasure. But NO, Dream on!

I will be busy, reallu busy. Working & stuffs, I wanna go for netball outing. Hopefully i can make it (: Alright, I'm motivated by erin words. If you cry one day, Just carry on the next day. No point crying over & over again, crying doesnt help but it make you feel much more better. I should say nothing last forever, chances are given to you. Once you lose it, it wouldnt come back again. NEVER EVER!

I hate my life, i pin too high hopes.

Labels:FML

Bad day

I'm always so suay, don't know why?
Hate tht, ohwell. Everything not going very smoothly these days, sucks to the core. Everything causing me headache, have to work again tmr. Gosh! Why time past so slow, Sometimes i love weekends sometimes i don't. sometimes i feel bad, sometimes i'm tired of everything. Feel so like giving up, but i can't. NEVER GIVE UP, i guess i wouldn't have the chance to go taiwan trip already. I've lost all my confidence, shag! Who are really there to build up my confident, arghs. Silly mistakes i always make.

I hope time could stop at those happy moment, but i know it wouldn't happen. Ah well, things turn upside down now. Freaking tired, I need more rest. & now i can't even have the mood to study, don't have the time to study & everything. I'm afraid to lose more friend b'cos of this, i'm sorry cliques hope your ain't angry. I wanted to go training too, I wanted to study too. But i seriously don't have any mood luh. CE&CC outing i can't even go with you girls, sorry! Sighed. Hope you all understand.

Time flies, human changed, things got so screwed up. What is this ):


Labels: So near yet so far.

I'm so fat now, i can feel my fats.
I ate too much already this days, alright. I walked to work this morning, & i realise i'm too early. Sit & rot there, If only i know i shouldn't be going there so early. The moment i reach there have to start work, gosh. All the invoices, what i see is only numbers numbers numbers. Killing me, i simply hate accounts. Boss was talking to me today, asking me to go take accounting course. I was like i don't feel like studying already, cause i know i wouldn't concentrate. Now finally i know how complicated or rather difficult accounts was :\

Kill me uh, i do my work super slowly as i'm so dang tired plus i've got no energy & i realise i can't work well with the aunties super what i only have 1 pair of hand & they throw me hell lots of paper work asking me to be quick they so clever come type lor, i hate to be employee, still i prefer my company most i love those clique there. & I love weekend, cause i don't have to work. I'm earning money for the sake of earning, my taiwan trip & TBC camp. I so wanna go lah, aw! nestle pay haven come yet, so pissed. sigh! boss is being so nice today, she treated everybody pizza! nice, but after eating work again. I'm waiting for the clock to strike 6 & knocked off! I walked home, & i ate my dinner. Head down to company for meeting, i think i will dream tonight. Cause i kept laughing non-stop as xinyi & i was crapping & it's between own secrets. hahaha!

Had SUPER B today, i love MAX speech. God damn! Nice, after the SUPERB had a small briefing & there we go for grouping @kallang mac. sit weilian's lorry & zooom, love the wind track loads. Kinda relieve (: Super nice, Went kallang mac to chill. Having nice time with company people ! After tht cabbed home & my batt super dead, I wondering when can i get my phone back! i miss my phone ): Tmr meeting JY for lunch hopefully he can wake up & not hang over. Ohwell, I'm so pissed. Am so disappointed tht hais nvm, ohwell. Why should i care ? there is still track loads of friends & i seriously don't need you to be my friend ! Literally disappointed, I've tons of work to do. No time to meet up the girls ): No time for netball training, ohwell! I'm tired need some rest now. Goodnight.


Labels: Life goes up & down.

Am so tired now, but i can't get myself to bed.
I'm so awake whenever i've finished bathing, i slept at 6 yesterday & woke up at 7 am in the morning. Just one hour sleep, off to breakfast with mum & went to work. I've hard time finding the block & i didnt know it's so near aunt house. Ohwell, pretty suckie i should say. There is no reception in the office, & also i can't serve net. So can't use phone nor net, pay pretty suck 5/hour? Gosh, admin should be like 6 or 7/ hour nah. & the boss is so kind, gave me one whole lot of company invoices! Having hard time to sort all those invoices, & i almost forgot how to ke in already. I need to like work for one month before i can quit.

I want to earn money for the sake of my taiwan trip & also alot more. work form 9am to 6 pm. I went town to find gus & henry. This two "women' are so slow. I'm so dang diappointed as most trusted person going MIA now. Called & msg don't wanna reply saying him got trouble, Am so tired to care. I should have put myself into calvin shoes too, he have tried so hard to ask me down like how am i doing now. Gosh! Sigh, am so stressed up. How am i gonna aim RM ? I want my taiwan trip :\

I went to company with henry & gus, both of them are quite funny lah. I'm starving from noon to night. I skipped my lunch, i got gastric pain. dead, went eat with gus & henry at geylang lor 23 or smth. Chi chong fan, pretty nice. Ohwell thanks gus for being so nice today, he bought me nuggets & treat of chi chong fan (= Thanks motivator/ conseller. I'm so damn blur today, don't know what wrong with me, i left my cert at the store when i'm about to go home then i realise. I asked both of them to accompany. Lucky i managed to get back my cert, if not really dead shit.

Thanks for their sweat, ohwell. I went back home, my batt is super dead. & seriously like no music when i'm on my way home? I walked myself home from kovan all the way to my house alone & without any entertainment. I'm thinking, I seriously dame disappointed in myself. Why am i always so stupid, stupid to treasure the bad instead of the goods? I super regret, I always see him in company & i didn't know how & what to talk to him. Whereas in msg we can chat alot, but text him today totally no reply at all ): Seeing him walking past me is equal to sadness, i shouldn't be so bad in the past. Argh! Damn myself, I hoping there will be another chance.

But as for this time round i will treasure double-ly. I think he must be tired, tht why. Ohwell i will wait for miricles. I'm super shag, wondering why when i need him the most he also not there. Sigh! what shit sia, I've got work tmr again! 9-6pm then to company! Dead meat, my pimples & dark circle is getting worst. Hopefully tmr invoices i don't make mistake. For the sake of my TAIWAN trip i must endureee! )=


Labels: I don't wish things to rewind, cause if things rewind i wouldn't have know you.
But i just hope there will be one more chance, I'll sure treasure it.
Please ): misses.

& seriously i'm in dead trouble, i dislike this feeling )=

Good friends?

Who are really your good friends, best friends. You can see around, Humans do change, do make mistake. Even though you & him/she might be friends for very long, they might not be your closer or best pals anymore. See around, i know who are my good friends & bad friends like like seriously. ohwell, good friends are hard to find! I'm thankful to say i've some good friends around me at least, but i'm dang disappointed to have sucha friends like tht you know? Ohwell, I'm not gonna care whatever shit. I've problem going my path now, lost of my confident after seeing so many rejection. Failed! Tell me how to stand up & move on & fight for the battles? Arghs, gives me hell, gives me hell ! ):

Tmr will be my first day of work, ADMIN! (= Wish me goodluck. I'm keeping myself busy, yes!

Labels: I wish things could rewind.

I'm backkkk from company, like finally!
I wanna work 2 job from next week onwards, Admin office & Company :D I'm aiming for the coming june taiwan trip i so wanna go! but i've to like work double-ly hard (: Ohman! Nevermind, jiayou! Am so suay recently, i don't know why. I did a big big big super big mistake today, which make me feel so guilty. & also i'm so so so regret, regret in stepping into wrong route. Nvm everyone make mistake! I'm so regret for, haish don't wanna elaborate much. So dang disappointed in myself. & i don't know what wrong with me, make myself paiseh in bus today. Ohboy! I'm so busy with work work work & work. & i miss you you you you you ! (:

Was out with gus this afternoon, Accompany him for his lunch. After tht pool with him, then to company. Went lesson today, almost fall asleep. The room was so packed, & it's damn bloody hot like nobody business. Haha! Bring tony around, then stay back for work & cabbed home with calvin. Super tiring day! But still i enjoyed myself, hehe.


I'm considering.
ITICCY, FIH D:

Didn't sleep well yesterday night, damn tired. dad kept waking me up while i'm soundly sleeping, super noisy! Ate & com awhile, decided to take my phone for repair. So call J to follow me, after repairing went walked around. Saw Mr M, Jude Ang @bishan. Went home after walking around, supposed to meet A for dinner. Reached home went buy rojak :D Nice, & crapping with Mr Ang. Still can rmb there was once i spilt milk tea on his car :X hehehe! Alright, I'm tired but i can't sleep. I'm hungry ! :(

I can't sleep, so i came back & blog another post again.
Recently i got super no mood b'cos of something, But today, i find something different. As in I'm happy, feeling so great. As i've overcome everything tht i've to (: I'm moving on now, Ohwell. After 3 to 4 days i finally realise something, but well i'm not gonna care much now. Having karim darling, Bestie, lestie & all my netball friends including company friends to cheer me, entertain me & make me overcome every of the sour, sad, bursting emotion.

I went out & came home late cause i don't wanna think much on anything, well. Dad called godsis, but godsis helped me to tell dad to ignore me for awhile. Ohwell, thanks. I seriously don't know why, i dislike to have this kind of feeling. Having a parents to shout over the phone, or rather before going out will say come home early, it's like what the hack i haven even step out my door step lah. Nvm, small matter. I know they care, but just want a lil more freedom. I wanna go overseas with friends, ahhh! Ohwell, things changes like super fast. everything just came up to my mind, one word " why should i care or even Bothered." Wasting of time, Can i be more suay abit ? Sigh!

I'm & tired of everything, but well. No matter how difficult the situation is, there is always a solution to solve it (: Just do it. Love can make you forget time, time can make you forget love. hehe! Human change really fast like seriously? I don't know why either, well. Things got screwed up, but now i don't think there is a need to think of apologies again & again. what done can't be undone, enough! there is always a limit of toleration, i hate people to climb over my heads! Too easy to trust people, got so fed up. Damn it! blame myself then, I'm who i'm now (:

Confused

HAPPY 16TH ANDREA BESTIEEEE (:

Banana prata rmb? hahaha,

Finally you're 16th & you can watch NC16 show already!

Well, Hope you enjoyed yourself today,

All the best to your o's :D

Takecare, Loves.

Am so tired, lazy to go back company today. So I rot at home, waited till evening. Went out to find claria & i'm late as usual. Bus slow, went bought muffins & pocky for andrea! & then off to nebo place. Playing games waiting for andrea to come, making her paiseh in the nebo place, after tht order our food & drinks. Awesome! Cheese fries, Nachos & Sandwhiches. Omg so fattening, went to steph's place got a friendship band from her, thanks! :D Went suprise Andrea again, then to her house chat & stuff & home. Omg cheese cake just now, fats. I feel my stomach is so cheesy now! Gosh, Tired ttm! Tmr going out again, winks* thought of going jogging with godsis tmr, but aiyah lazy next time :\ Bugis tmr! Off to shower, Byeee!

Labels: I don't wanna think much, but to let nature take it course.

Once i fall, I'm afriad to stand up again.

Don't even dare to pin high hopes,

I'm too easy to trust people.

Ohwell, Choice 1, Choice 2 or Choice 3?

Weird

Am so tired, slept at 5am in the morning. Chatting over the phone, crapping around. feeling so upset. Someone is so small gas, ohwell nvm. I went to play bball in the noon with humans, I bang into a bamboo stick & i fall. But lucky it's just a small cut, boo! I continue playing tilled 5 plus 6, went home & rot infront of the commy. I ate my dinner, i bus to kovan to meet up Jh. Accompany him for dinner, then off to selegie bean curd. I've been saying tht over the phone yesterday night tilled now, i ate carrot cake from old chang kee. Do i look like a pig? Ohwell, off to play pool. I lost him by 3, win him by 1. Reason being, Someone block my view! Got super irritated.

Walked home from kovan, Walking in the terrence houses. Super dark super scary, trying to find old hougang sec. But don't know where issit ? So continue walking, saw a lady who kept hmm-ing down there alone. Jh & i got a fright. Walked off as quickly as we could, It was fun but scary. I saw my dream house ): I wanted to buy tht house when i earn enough money. where my houses can parked 4 cars inside, woo! Finally after a long walked i'm home, chatted with elizabeth just now. Can't wait to meet the girls tmr, & I've to work again. Tired, RM faster come back leh. Mahjong later on, weee!


Labels: The feeling is coming D:

I'm so so so tired today, but i can't slack anymore! I wanna sleep but i can't, i went back company today, find junhong. Then oppt, after tht fetch tony. Then to company, & i really wanna thanks Junhong. He helped me on my oppt, as RM is overseas to macau. So shiok la ): I wanna go too, ohwell. I was bored down there but lucky Gus was there to entertaine me, ohwell. I went home after chatting with the group of people, something happen on the bus. Stupid bus driver delay time only, reached home & i'm super bored now. So sian! Aw ): 10 000 to go! jiayou !


Labels: It's so accurate & i don't know why?

Trust & Gain

Work hard towards your goal, nothing is impossible.
there will be always a solution to overcome every difficulties, FACE IT.
Treasure it before it is too late,
Fight for the battle!
Every hard work pays.
GO GO GO !
Work hard now, rest later.

Was out the whole day today, supposed to go gym. But who knows phone batt gave problem, & it screwed up everything now. Sigh! Am very sorry! ): Damn shitty, so i went home changed & got down to woodland. I'm super shag today, Didn't sleep the whole night! On the way there I called up junhong! who knows he is at home, waited for him for 1 hour plus. Saw Azul & ppl, supposed to sign Iphone but not enough age. Grh! I'm lack of cash now, $450 to go ): Shag.

I went company rot, F-king phone no batt! Make me can't contact anyone, Do alot of work today. First time went company so early, sales month closing tmr i think! Have to chiong for march, damn stress. Headache, So sleepy now. Tired, got no appetite to eat. I wanna go taiwan with colleges ): Heard from junhong it's damn AWESOME! Have to fight for my RM now, Busy busy busy.

I don't know what to do now ): God damn stress, i know you are super angry now. A word of sorry is nothing. Sigh! ): Sorry to aloy for not meeting you today again, sorry to tony tht i aeroplane you again. Sorry for the late reply of msges. ohwell.

Not thinking much.

4T1'08 i kinda miss them! Miss studying together, playing together. ohwell, time flies like so fast can? all my classmate, study want study. Work want work!

We are all eighteen this year, omg! but some are even older :X

hehe!

I got so pissed, so annoyed. Went lunch with mum this afternoon, i think i'm gonna get fat like seriously? Laksa! & I went to buy bubble tea behind my house, tht girl was totally a toot can? Her attitude was like, boo! Ohwell, i rot at home tilled evening, ate my dinner & i off to work place. Bus is super late, when i got up the bus it's like 735pm & my appt @8pm. lucky kobe was later then me, well. I don't know should i feel disgusted or what? there is this unknown Ahpek, sit next to me. He thought tht i'm so skinny kept squeezing me tilled i got like very little place, & he took his plastic bag up but i don't know what is inside. He said this to me " You wanna eat? in teochew" i was like " WTH, Who the hell or what the hell is inside the plastic bag. smell so stinky!" then everybody in the bus was like looking @me, i feel so damn paiseh la. got so irritated!

I changed place, i got down the bus. went to company, do paper work tilled 11plus. i got my first pay cheque :D Thanks to calvin! much appreciate, cabbed home with him & i feel damn super moody, super shag. Damn tired, seated inside the cab kept thinking & thinking of something. Wanted to sleep but can't. Ohwell, am sorry to Aloy. Supposed to meet him after my work, but well too late. But still thanks! Shouldn't elaborate much here, well! Tmr it's a busy day i bet, tired!

Wanna chiong work already! Jiayou! I'm tired, shall bed early today!

Labels: Stop, Think & Go.

Why why why is this so ? ):

What a day!

Photos are up, outing with my bff's (: BITCHES!

TBP !

Loves!

Too dark leh!

LP, TBP (:

Lestie!

Lestie (:

my delicious fried FISH with fries & potato salad. But i dislike the potato salad, not nice! But this time round i order correct dish! I went to say fried cutlet but i wanted a fish! how stupid, ohwell.

As you relize this photos are the same reason being, we set the one shot shoot mode & it turn out to be super fast. so my reaction equal to slow & i didn't have the time to change my emotion! Tsk!

Snapple (:

Nice drink !

(:

Hmmm?

Promoting snapple?

Looking at nowhere?

Bellaaa!

Faceless

Above the sky!

Cheers!

HUGS (:

Cupcup!

SBJ!

Acting Cute!

Jiamin!

Best pal !

Loves!

Hug!

Seetkiamin!

Snapshot!

BFF'S!

Me, icecream & elaine!

Bella!

Gosh, it's like finally i've finished uploading all those pictures i took with my bff's. & time check it's 3.26am now. Dad is nagging me! & well i'm so moody @first, but after having so many ppl accompany me i'm feeling much more better. thanks peeps! It've been like ages seen i'm contacting with junhao, i can't remember how i know him in secondary school. but so funny when we suddenly contact, well. Jh, berryl, Jw, Enyu, Ace, Ys. Busy talking to them just now, & now i'm kinda free to update finished my blog.

Sometime i find my blog kinda wordy! & guess what i went to bugis alone today, it's my first time going out alone. went to buy cookie from tht idiot leon, grh! nevermind, Camera shy. Well, i went to find aloysius so long didnt see him already. & he finally change job, used to work in toysRus last time but lucky i didn't continue working as he said all the good manager have been posted to another outlet. Phew! but well i miss working in toysRus althought it's very tiring standing & doing the cashier. seeing customer faces & kana complaint, losing money as my calculation is incorrect. Too tired, hah!

but well, chat alot with aloysius. thought of waiting for him to off work & go shopped but i'm so lazy cause i'm gonna stuck @iluma until 10pm ?! well, i went to pray at shi ma lu guan ying miao. so crowded, I saw kobe twice today & i'm gonna see him tmr again. trained to orchard to find my darling, then head for dinner @ave 8. waited for joanne then went chill & chat. Homed @1130 & i didn't know tht parents are not home yet. Lucky i didn't go home earlier on if not i'm gonna be bored tilled death, super scary to stay at home alone. Tsk! Am so tired now, well. I'm gonna off to bed if not dad will nag non-stop like a machine gun! Goodnight! :D

Labels: What Now?

sometime i find it so random, so rush, so sudden. But i just can't accept it. B'cos i'm not ready at all. & i still... nvm! sigh! ):