My heart shattered into pieces

To N:
I don't know when can we settle everything & be back to normal. I know you are ignoring me now, i texted you but you didnt reply. Okay, nevermind. I know you need time to chill yourself, i've make you disappointed. I'm sorry! I didn't keep my words when i'm playing court game, once again sorry! i know a word of "sorry" is nothing, how i wish everything will be back like the past? Yes those happy moments, how much i wish to go back to the past now la. Staying in this situation really hurts, I know i shouldn't be emo-ing yesterday. It's my bad, Everything are changing. We're just so cold now, aint we? What about our deal? issit still on? I really don't know what really happen to you now? i seriously don't know, i wanted to ask you but you choose to ignore me. Haish! You know how jealous am i seeing you so good with R? & she can make you happy but i can't, i read back all those messages you send me in the past it's so sweet. After looking back & compare to now, my heart break into pieces. I drip my tears while reading it, my bed is so cold. I need you! I miss you sleeping beside me, i miss those hugs & kisses you gave. I miss us talking over the phone, i just miss those sweet memories. But what now? playing back those memories make my heart bleed, I don't mean to hurt your ankle just now, i hope you are fine now. Please ice it okay, i can do nothing now. I know you don't need me to care, i know everything wouldn't be like the past. I know the deal is already gone, I'm sorry to make you cry too, please don't treat me so cold can? Please don't ignore me can? Haish! please take good care of yourself, iloveyou! :'(






I'm freaking emotional now, my brain is so empty.
She will never know the feeling of mine now,
in the past she use to care alot, but now everything seem so different.
I wanted to rewind my time back if i can?
I seriously wanted to, i've misunderstood her yesterday.
Tell me, tell me what happen to us?
Tell me when can we settle everything & be back to the past?
Tell me what really going on now?
Tell me if those deal is still on? I hope it is.
I just wanted to hear those sweet word from your mouth one more time.
I wanted you,
Tell me if we can be back to the past,
I'm typing this with tears, with pain.
You wouldn't know how much i love you,
You will never know how much i need you now,
You will never know how much i wanted everything to be back to the past.
Please for god sake just take care of yourself & your health.
I'm speechless now..




Insomnia, 爱一直存在.