Emotional.

Argh!
I hated myself so so so badly, I throw temper today. Gosh, what the hack am i doing. Tsk! I kept telling myself to stop it but i can't. During the bus journey, my tears almost drip. What wrong with me? Sigh! So many things flash through my mind, i'm so confused so fuck-up. I'm trying to overcome everything, telling myself not to be so petty. Not to be so jealous b'cos of a lil things, but what i scare the most is ... Sigh! I shall not say, well. Karim is right, there is always happy & sad things. If you are happy in day 1 you will definately be sad in day 2, I'm tempted to S&D. but I need to control. It's hard, No one knows the feeling of mine.

Why? Upon hearing what you said yesterday i kinda understand the situation. But still, You hate liar? yeah me too. Who doesn't hate liars? Tsk! Hmm, alot of question mark kept inside my mind. i don't know whether should i say it out or should i kept it inside my heart, Alot of problems is bothering me. Family, love, friends. I really miss secondary friend, they are always there to listen to me when i'm down. Esp karim & chiewchin, now we are just drifting apart. Emotional, I shouldn't be jealous. Cause they are just friends, ohmy. I get so jealous easily, i've to change. I've to tell myself nothing will happen, be strong kiamin. Trust is the key words.

Alright alright i really don't know what to do, what to say. I'm so tired of things coming towards me. I've tried my best to be happy, but i failed. I always vent my anger & get emotional, what happen to me? I hope i can overcome everything, i need my happy pills. Where are you, i just need you ): Tsk!