So many things too little time.

Have been busy, really busy recently..

Projects deadline is coming, have been going home late recently due to projects discussion with group members. Hopefully we are able to upload everything by Monday, & Tues we will start our presentation..

No time to do due to working schedule being too tight up. Well, now i know how the poly student feel, rushing projects & etc.. Luckily teammate are all hard working, if i were to meet those lazy teammate i guess we are gonna flunk everything.. Time past really fast, working tomorrow & school after that. Don't have much time to rest, gonna rushed some part of my project tonight. & management, i haven complete a thing yet.. Really too many things to complete in one shot, gonna relax after everything end.. I wanna travel again, exam is coming nearer too, Tonight hopefully i can have my Pasta mania w fatty..

School Life

Home work after Qs lesson

Someone taught me how to type my name using calculator (:

It's gonna be mad tired rushing to school after work, well it's the 3rd weeks of school already. Thought that teacher in PSB will be a great one but it disappoint me in many ways. They speak darn fast & you gotta catch up with their pace. But it's really stupid that a teacher who doesn't have the intention to repeat what she have gone through before hand & yet she still can say "too bad, so sad"& also the reason she gave us is b'cos she is lazy..

If she is lazy then why does she teach? Sigh, i think i really need find times to revive everything again. I'm gonna flunk badly this time ): Both teacher teach like as if they are driving a sportcar, go darn fast. Sigh exam is just next month, & i have got no time to study ): projects deadline in 2 weeks time. Way too stress!

06 MARCH 2012

SCHOOL!

School started yesterday, went into the class too many students inside a room. Air-con was freezing cold. Sit far back of the class, teacher go through everything too fast. No text book as i haven buy yet, 1st module finished within 3 hours. teacher going through another module this coming saturday, got difficulties in catching up, have to self revise my own.

hope POA isn't a difficult module after all. Will be back to post if i am FREE.

22nd birthday on the 21st Feb

His 22nd Birthday celebration

Happy Birthday Dearest! (:

Lovely girls

The board i gave to him, a little small ah this picture

Lovely girls ♥

Make a wish ~

Brotherly love ~ ♥

Group Photo (:

Free flow drinks @T.G.I.F

Ahhhh Fennn ah!~

Celebrated his birthday at Marche on the very day, Planning a surprise is really hard.

Changed danny's contact into someone else to prevent him to find out (: So i went to meet him first, have been contacting with the rest as they went to decorate the cakes & etc.. At first he was like "SIAN" & gave a v shagged face & he thought i didn't planned anything. But i planned a very last minute one.

Luckily his friends are free on the day itself. So before walking into Marche was calling danny to see if everyone have reached & when they reached i brought him over & he really got a shocked! & his "sian" face became "smiley" face -.- So the surprises work! Went to order our food & etc..

Chill at T.G.I.F after eating then 8 of us share cab home (: that's all for that day.

& yeah, will be starting school soon, i need to get a small pencil case & also flats and socks. I am in need of those ): need to find time to go shopped & thursday i have got orientation already, so fast. But can't wait for school to start! :D

R.I.P

A very sad story about this guy ;

Though i don't know this young guy, but he is from my secondary who is only sec 4 this year.Yes, he is very pitiful. at such a young age he suffered from cancer (4th stage) upon hearing his story is really touching, every classmate of his even teachers is kinda sad to see him left this world on the 14 feb 2012 morning.his classmate wants to surprise him in ICU but he have left this world.

His wish is to complete N'level this year tgt with his classmates, but..

Life is short, treasure whatever things you are having now.

R.I.P BELLAMY.

Valentines

14 Feb 2012 ♥

Candle light dinner at jack place.

Jack place gift for the ladies yesterday

Starter: Mushroom soup, Salad & Garlic Bread

Main Course: Fish & chicked tgt with Potatoes & vegetable.

Thank-you for everything, although there is something cock up in-between.

but still thanks for making the effort and everything, costing you a bomb

really appreciate a lot. this date this month you make it wonderful,

thanks for the awesome & memorable dinner ♥♥♥

Dessert: Chocolate/strawberry moose & tea

♥ the hearts with the candle

This is the cake he wanted to surprise me,

but at the end he slip the words out from his mouth

but still a v lovely & awesome one! ♥

His 22th birthday, valentines & monthsary present ♥

Hope he likes it!

Burberry Brit Sheer perfume he gave - Thanks love

It's my first time having such a wonderful/awesome/memorable Valentines' Day dinner compared to the past few year. Really wants to thanks him for putting so much effort to make me happy! Everything worth-while, thanks for tolerating my attitude & everything.

Though my temper is not very good sometimes, but still having you is awesome (':

♥♥♥

thanks!

Yeah, Will be attending this course in march sponsored by HP (:

2 days course in march. HAHAHA!

Can't wait to see how this course like (:

They finally approved!

Hello, i am back!

Sat morning, ah fen asked me to open my letter box as she said CDAC have mail us the letter. So i woke up from my bed, brushed my teeth & rushed down to open my letter box. & finally i saw the letter they sent, the approved on the subsidize of my school fees. So i just have to pay $217 for every month, so happy!

Am waiting for PSB letter & i am starting school on 6 March, will be vvv busy already. Hopefully i will not be lazy than before :D Not going to regret anymore, i don't want to throw my 2000 plus into the sea & flunk this time. Wish me luck! (((:

February

February Is a broke month!

I am back, been tired working these days. So fast it's gonna be mid February

14th - valentine day

21st - Boyf 22nd birthday

23rd - our 9 months.

Guys present is so difficult to find,

this old man here is 22 years old already. like so old, thinking of what present i can get for him. Cracking my head all the while.

well, need to go town and hunt for present already.

Now i realize i have been addicted to the chocolate bun, every morning is a must for me to buy it. & of cos tgt with MILK. Heh, now i am so full that i don't even have space for my lunch. Well, think i will blog more next time.

Weekends!

Work is kinda stress up, so weekend is here for us to enjoy!

Friday Night (:

Manfred (: Friend for dk how many years (:

Made new friend that day, Alicia.

She is a friendly girl (:

Russell, also friend for many years (:

( K- Session on saturday night )

Baby (:

Fen!! hopefully both of us got into same class in march!

Study kaki ! (:

Weekends always end so fast, i have always been waiting for my weekends to arrive so i can relax myself. & finally i am prepare for school, done my spects but they say my 闪光 is very jialat ): Faced com too many hours.. Now gotta wear spects whenever i am studying and working, bad! Finally i clear all my bills, & still i am waiting for my study letter to come. Looks like need to wait for 3 -4 weeks. Sigh! gonna turn in now , goodnight!

Little things may affects you.

No doubt it is big or small matter.

Life is always unpredictable,

Sad things always comes after good things.

The person you trust the most

will definitely pulls you down one day.

Trust? Promises?

Yes they do exist, but only for awhile.

After someone ruined it, you will afraid

to trust again.

Sweet things always happen for few months

it doesn't last for long, maybe it does

but only for certain people.

We have came this far, but you choose to

ruined my mood every now and then.

You may not know how i am feeling now.

but definitely no girls can endure a guy

who doesn't care about what she say.

You love to play Lan game, this shows

that you are totally immature. Yes you

can play, but you should know yourself

better that you have work the next day

but yet?

You asked me if i could let you go back

your blackshot. I said Yes, but not on a

weekdays. You promised? But end up

this is what you proved to me?

How can i not attitude you? If a girl let

you play no doubt there is work or no

work the next day, DO YOU THINK SHE

CARE. DOES SHE REALLY CONCERN

about YOU!

Go & think yourself, what you want!

You said you want future, Yes a future

but not a gamer future! what things

will you gain if you play till that far in

your game. TOTALLY NOTHING!

SO NOW TRY ASK ME WHY I ALWAYS

GIVE YOU ATTITUDE. there are many reasons

out there. If you can think of what a man should

be like Definitely there will be less conflicts.

But you don't, you choose to not bother.

SO WHY SHOULD I? Have been waiting for

the whole night for your calls & text, thanks god

I RECEIVED NON. this show how important i

am to you...

Hey You need to be screwed badly, upside down

inside out!

Lovely

So it's the 2nd day of Feb, How's your day? Mine was quite okay only.

Due to work, as auditor will be coming soon ( which is i don't know when ). Well, treat it as per normal then. Heh! Walked around after my dinner today, i saw the spect i want. Since secondary this will be the don't know how many set of spects alrdy. I remembered there's these day i purposely dropped my spect into the drain just b'cos i wanted to change new spect!

Well, Boyf gave me a idea. asking me to buy a cheap frame without any degree then go to the optical shop to change my lens. Like well! i know it sounds funny, haha! A way to save, I am thinking if i should go to dental to do a check up? it have been many years i last visit a dental, & also i am considering to put braces. Maybe after my Studies!

Alright lazy to type, goodnight!

Been long..

Out to have dinner with the girls yesterday.

Nice dinner, Nice chat.

Homed after our dinner!

Have been working these days, feel kinda tired. Need some times to relax myself, I need to prepare for my school. Need a small pencil case & new spects especially, Feel kinda excited & nervous. Bad feeling. I want to go Genting, taiwan & bangkok ): So many places, need to save!

Oh yes, i am still waiting for the CDAC confirmation letter to come! Don't know need to wait for how long. Hopefully they approved!

Alright, it have been 3 week. But I still having this heavy heart feeling, Missed her so much.

feel like tearing whenever i hear this song :

Granny let me dream of you please!

我很想你！
Heart feel so heavy after seeing this picture. Who knows how's the feeling like losing your true loves one.
No one understand why I am feeling so agitated these days. It sucks it really sucks

第三个礼拜。

婆婆这个礼拜天就是您离开我们的第三个礼拜了！昨天晚上睡觉时突然想起您对我说过的话。想起您问起妈妈为什么没来您家，您还问我妈妈是不是不喜欢你。然我感到非常的心痛，不只要如何然您知道他的事情。

多么希望您回来帮他，看到他那么辛苦感到非常心痛。我还想起以前我小时候您每次都会到巴刹买我最喜欢吃得肉松来个我配粥。

想起您以前对我们的好，想起您的可爱的笑容让我突然想再次拥抱您多一次。每当我看到有老婆婆走在路旁我多么希望那个老婆婆是您。

已经过了三个礼拜了，我们还是放不下啊！)':

Chinese new year eve

Yes today is Chinese new year eve yet I don't feel anything at all. No excitement, no feel. Every year I used to wake up early, go praying and have reunion lunch. After that have to rush ourself down to grandma's place to pray and eat reunion lunch again.

But this year it's somehow different, missing grandma happily eating Tgt with us. She always wanted to come our place to stay but no one can take care of her. Sigh.. Daddy always repeat this to himself.

I missed those days, having you around giving us laughter. Every year is the same but not from this year onwards.

Please come visit us during chu 2 , we all miss u.

Pity

Whenever i go to the food court for lunch,

there is this old lady who work inside the food court as a cleaner. Not that working as a cleaner isn't good but i feel kinda pitiful to see those old ah ma working inside. Walking here and there to collect the used plate, cleaning the table & etc.. She did talk to us, asking us not to smoke and etc. Ohyes btw she smoke, but she see me standing outside the food court waiting for my colleague to finish smoking. She asked me " xiao mei you nv smoke ah" I replied nope, She say it's good better don't learn how to smoke if not you will get addicted.

She is nice lady though, but seems like the other cleaner love to bully her thus she keep mumbling about them. But she really makes me remind of ah ma, or should i say every old lady i saw will makes me remind her. oh well...

Almost done with my work, time pass super slow today ):

想念你

I dream of you calling? Issit you? I heard your voice, I miss you so much. It have been a week plus since you have gone to another world.

-missing your present
-your smile
-your hugs
-your skinny little hands

This year Chinese new year, it will be a lot different compared to past few years. Every year, everyone of us will bring 2 big oranges to your hse to 拜年. But this year? Haiz, every one is missing you so much. Hoping that you will be around, you will always be that pretty ah ma in everyone's heart.

It's the mid-January, my application for school gonna closed soon. Gonna settle it this week once and for all! Hoping that I will work harder than before. Ah ma blessed me ok!

您还过的好吗？

亲爱的婆婆，
今天是您的头七日。想知道您在天堂还过得好吗？还习惯那里的日子吗？ 我们大都很想你哦！ 看得出最近二叔叔他非常的伤心，初三就是他的生日了。我们会帮他庆祝的，请您放心！ 但是婆婆， 我们大家都很想你，我们都好希望您会快点出现在我们的梦里。看到您和公公又可以在一起，我感到很高兴。那当然我还会抱着一颗依依不舍心情啦，我真的很怀念小时候的日子。 每当您家楼下有 PASAR MALAM 的时候， 您都会给我钱叫我和 KAIWEN 去买我们想要吃的东西。 但现在，我只能在梦里看见你！我真的很想再次拥抱您永远也不要和您分开，婆婆我们大家都很爱您。 您感觉得到吗？多么希望理天里有INTERNET， 能然我们跟你联络啊。haiz， 是我想太多了！ 婆婆您一定要保佑我下星期六没有做工以为我很想去买你喜欢吃的WAFFLE 来拜您啊，你一定要保佑ok？

我爱你。

RIP Grandma ):

It have not been a v good start of the month, on sunday after dying my hair rushed all the way down to hospital to see my granny. She keep on saying strange stuffs & remind my uncles to do this and that. I thought she was just talking nonsense, But uncle asked all of us to stay by her side till 11 plus. & that was when i am seeing her suffering, having difficulties in breathing. So that's was when she left us by the time of 2330, her oxygen level went super low. She didn't responds when everyone is calling her to breath, I missed her! Everyone was crying, the painful side that she waited everyone to reach hospital & she was announced dead..

She teared, she don't bare to leave us. But she have got no choice, went to choose her coffins & stuffs. Home next, & the next morning went over to her house to pack her stuffs. Strange things is, godsis found her watch & the time stopped at 2330. Is her death time, so when alden came he asked sis to go into the toilet where granny kept his toys. No one knows where the toys are, but alden do. Sigh, pray & everything.. Seeing granny's photo & lying inside the coffins really breaks everyone of us down.

I hoped that she can get back tgt with grandpa as they have been separated for so many years! Today is the last day i see grandma, i feel like hugging her, but now i can't. I only can see her photos, I wished i can dream of her. Hoping that she can tell me not to worry as she is v blessed staying in heaven tgt with gods. Tmr gonna collect her bones, I love you granny. Thanks for doting everyone of us. Seeing us grow up one by one!

Heartbreaks

Heard another news from godsis,
Granny need to be fed thru her nose. that's gonna make her very uncomfortable, She teared while the nurse inserted the tube into her nose. This is a torture, really a torture, been hoping & praying that she will be able to discharge before new year. The stupid doctor only mentioned it today that if she continue eating normal food, all the food will goes into her lung. WTS right? like after so long staying inside hospital then they voiced out?

When she having all those check-up, they just say she is okay blah blah blah! I am so scare, so scare now. Upon hearing what jeremy told me, he said that his granny actually only can have food thru her nose. & they fed her milk, he said there is a virus in that hospital that couldn't be cure. If you kana that virus it's a very serious thing, & that is when his granny pass away b'cos of that "unknown" virus.

I am so scared now! Haiz, i can't see her tearing with pain. She have suffered alot, please let her recovered & discharged ASAP ):

T.G.I.F

I miss you, baby ballball!

Hello everybody,
Work is tiring, I feels tired whenever i travel to work or go home from work. I really don't know why, despite sleeping for long hours. I can never get enough sleep, Never enough!

Ohwell, it's weekend again. the reason why i love week end is because i can sleep late & wake up even later. Haha! I kinda miss my holiday in Macau & hongkong, i love the weather there although its kinda cold. But the lifestyle there are kinda simple, some things are cheap compared to singapore.

What i hate the most?
Going hongkong, excluding DisneyLand.
Had a very bad experience there, So many people there & their MTR is srsly packed like what. We need to wait for like 5 to 6 train to go then we can board the train. the humans there just don't know how to auto, keep pushing like no body business & it's damn hot inside compared to outside! Sigh.. Disneyland was quite okay lah, only get to sit few rides only! Holiday over too fast & it gonna pass 1 month already.

i miss ballball, she is so cute, adorable, playful, obedient. Alot of best thing to describe her, i hope i can adopt a dog like her next time. Chinese new year coming, i haven buy any clothing yet. Time is way too packed! Anyway i am heading to PSB tmr & also CDAC, i hope i got enough time to travel both side. Paya labar & tanjong pagar (if i don't rmb the place wrongly) Hopefully i can registered & got into the business course i want, it might be stress i don't know. But seriously i think its really hard to survive with only ITE cert now. Tsktsk!

New Year, New Resolution.

Happy New year everybody,
Brand new start. Hopefully this year will be a great one, ohwell i feel so old now! 20 years old already, the feeling of approaching 20 is so close now. Sooner i will be 21, 22 & so on. 31st the last day of 2011.. Superisingly, i didn't head to town and joined the countdown there. Instead i went to malaysia in the late afternoon as it was the last minute plan, bf called and asked if i want to tag along tgt with his friends. So i agreed, waited for his friend to come fetched me then headed to malaysia with Bf, yuky , jingfu & bernard..

Bernard actually wanted to collect his GPS. But is not ready yet, so we headed for our late lunch somewhere in msia. Had soup & rice, i swear it is super delicious! after eating we went to holiday plaza/INN to shop! nothing much but Hp accesories, bought myself a earpiece! and i used up all my msia money alrdy.

Actually their stuffs quite cheap though, compared to singapore pricing. After shopping, we headed to a seafood restuarant to had our dinner. I love the crabs there, tasted so awesome. spend arnd RM 200 for our dinner. its consider cheap le ok! After eating head back to singapore suppose to meet huifen and her bf but but but when we reaches singapore it's quite late so we didn't went to town and find them that day, instead of town we went to yuky's hse instead. Her dog is super cute :D

played mj at her house then off for mac breakfast. & Home Sweet Home! Rest all the way, then head to hospital to look for grandma the next afternoon w bf accompany, while he is studying at starbuck i went to ward to look for her. Seeing her coughing in pain really heart breaks lah. But when she try to joke with us, everything seems kinda relief! went to AMK hub next, supposed to catch a movie at AMK but the slots are full for the earliest timing so we bought the next day tickets instead. Passion card $7 for weekend w 1 small pop corn! LOL.

watched "we bought a zoo" kinda funny though, After watching went straight home as next day i gotta work. Reached home quite early, so computer game to kill my time! Went to bed after i got super tired.. Next morning, almost can't get up for work! no matter how many hours i sleep i still feel tired. ):