Tuesday, March 29, 2011

A process of growing up ;

Alright, i have been in this earth for 19 years. Although is no big deals but i have somehow gone through a lot of shit stuffs in my life, ain't this a process of growing up? haha.

At the age of 1 to 2 years old, all of us know nothing. What we exactly know is "mummy can i have that toys this & that. Tilled the age of 6 years old every one of us started to learn ABC & etc.. oh well tilled the day we really stepped into primary school & started to make friends there, you see there's all sort of people in the world. Mummy always dragged me to the salon & she told the hair dresses "Please help my daughter cut a super short hair" when i stepped out of the salon ta daaa a tom boy looks. Yah that's me in primary school, i always tell mummy that i wanted to keep long hair but one reply straight NO. oh dang i always don't feel like going to school with that super duper short hair, everyone sure laughed at me ):

When time comes to secondary, i admit i'm still dumb, nerd & stupid. I don't even know anything or what so ever, quarrel with daddy everyday making him worried & called all my cousin just to find me. Leaving house, skipped school & NOT TO FORGET COUNSELLING. tilled the time when i reaches sec three, i went through a lot of shit tilled now i have turned 19 this year. I realize there is a lot of dramatic people who really can become a " Famous"mediacorp actress & actor. Once bitten twice shy, I think i'm still stupid enough to trust people too easily. Sweet talks? Nah, that is only for sec 1 to 3 kids. Going through a lot of shit in life especially last year & this year, the feeling is totally sucks to the max. You won't wanna know how was it, but still people out there please don't be stupid okay? Whatever it is, this is a warning given by god. Its a process for letting you to grow more mature, awww.

Not to forget about work, i'm darn tired working with those workload pressuring me. 1 person doing 2 peoples job, Awesome not? Can you ever feel it, the feeling of doing your own work plus helping people to backup their stuffs & not to forget the 2 reports that you have to submit on that week. This is hell ain't it? I feel like bursting out with tears today, the workloads is really killing me. Too depressed, adding up on some family matters. Worrying this & that, painful life. I can't take it really can't take it. I just need some break, a break for all this shitty stuffs that coming towards me & causes my emotional break down. Oh please, i just hope that mommy will be alright. ): I guess this is the suckier week ever, although my fatty cousin is coming back in few days time but then i still gotta work on this saturday! FML

*Big sigh*

I hate waking up in the early morning, rushing myself to working without taking any breakfast & squeezing in the packy bus & train. With those inconsiderate people, pushing here & there when they know there isn't any place for them anymore. This is why i hate taking public transport, but no choice. I ain't that rich to buy a car for myself, dream on kiamin (:

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