A process of growing up ;

Alright, i have been in this earth for 19 years. Although is no big deals but i have somehow gone through a lot of shit stuffs in my life, ain't this a process of growing up? haha.

At the age of 1 to 2 years old, all of us know nothing. What we exactly know is "mummy can i have that toys this & that. Tilled the age of 6 years old every one of us started to learn ABC & etc.. oh well tilled the day we really stepped into primary school & started to make friends there, you see there's all sort of people in the world. Mummy always dragged me to the salon & she told the hair dresses "Please help my daughter cut a super short hair" when i stepped out of the salon ta daaa a tom boy looks. Yah that's me in primary school, i always tell mummy that i wanted to keep long hair but one reply straight NO. oh dang i always don't feel like going to school with that super duper short hair, everyone sure laughed at me ):

When time comes to secondary, i admit i'm still dumb, nerd & stupid. I don't even know anything or what so ever, quarrel with daddy everyday making him worried & called all my cousin just to find me. Leaving house, skipped school & NOT TO FORGET COUNSELLING. tilled the time when i reaches sec three, i went through a lot of shit tilled now i have turned 19 this year. I realize there is a lot of dramatic people who really can become a " Famous"mediacorp actress & actor. Once bitten twice shy, I think i'm still stupid enough to trust people too easily. Sweet talks? Nah, that is only for sec 1 to 3 kids. Going through a lot of shit in life especially last year & this year, the feeling is totally sucks to the max. You won't wanna know how was it, but still people out there please don't be stupid okay? Whatever it is, this is a warning given by god. Its a process for letting you to grow more mature, awww.

Not to forget about work, i'm darn tired working with those workload pressuring me. 1 person doing 2 peoples job, Awesome not? Can you ever feel it, the feeling of doing your own work plus helping people to backup their stuffs & not to forget the 2 reports that you have to submit on that week. This is hell ain't it? I feel like bursting out with tears today, the workloads is really killing me. Too depressed, adding up on some family matters. Worrying this & that, painful life. I can't take it really can't take it. I just need some break, a break for all this shitty stuffs that coming towards me & causes my emotional break down. Oh please, i just hope that mommy will be alright. ): I guess this is the suckier week ever, although my fatty cousin is coming back in few days time but then i still gotta work on this saturday! FML

*Big sigh*

I hate waking up in the early morning, rushing myself to working without taking any breakfast & squeezing in the packy bus & train. With those inconsiderate people, pushing here & there when they know there isn't any place for them anymore. This is why i hate taking public transport, but no choice. I ain't that rich to buy a car for myself, dream on kiamin (:

Somethings which i can't stand about guys.

There are all sort of ppl in this world, it's difficult to elaborate all out. but just to write it short & simple. I can never stand guys with;

1. untidy dress up.

2. immatureness.

3. Flirt

4. Annoying.

5. Thick-skin.

6. Unreasonable.

7. Not understanding.

8. Attitude problems.

9. Behave Disgustingly

10. Guys who keep on Sweet talking.

11. Smokers.

12. Disrespect girls.

13. Stubborn.

14. attract attention.

15. impatience.

16. to do things i don't like it.

17. too quiet.

18. to keep on playing online game.

19. dirty!

20. Who can't accept who i am.

21. Complain non-stop.

22. Don't have his own decision

I like guys who:

1. wear perfume

2 wear braces

3. neat hair/dressing.

4. wear watches.

5. understanding.

6. mature.

7. hyper.

8. Sporty!

9. patience.

10. respect girls.

11. spike hair.

12. won't complain so much.

13. give FUN, JOY, LAUGHTER.

14. FIT (:

15. Non-smokers.

16. able to accept who i really am.

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Okay, sorry for neglecting my blog for so many weeks/days. Reason being i've been busy working, & also when i got home it's time for me to bed in order to get my ass to work early. Hmm talk about work, time pass so fast? I've been in that company for 1 month already, but no big deal lah. First time attending company meeting, first experience.... nothing much but i keep falling asleep while boss & hp boss are talking. heh!

pay slip have sent through email, as in this month pay slip. CPF deduction 20% of it, hah! Alot right? But it's good for our future though, i've been trying really hard to save money. But seems like i always failed to do it. As you know i keep spending money & etc.. seriously hard to control, most of the money i spend on FOOD. Good or bad? i told myself i want to save money to buy an iphone 4 this month, BUT look at my pay? Look at my family condition now? how to buy? big sigh! I'd wish everything can be over asap, I can't tolerate any longer. I've been going through this thing since grandma pass away. 5 years? tougher things that ever happen in my whole 19 years of my life.

I think i will have hard time buying phone & going overseas this coming year end. I wanted to go macau that bad. Enjoying myself, enjoying the cooling weather there, shop around. rather then seeing bugis street, orchard. all the towns area, awww i super envy those ppl who keep travelling, i'm waiting for my turn to come! but it's like i'm gonna wait till? I don't know when..

there are many country i wanted to go like exp, taiwan, USA, australia & etc... Time flies i'm 19 this year. gonna reach 20 years old next year.. Find myself super old now, if only my time is still in primary will that be good or bad? Tsk, alright drop all this topic.

What goes around comes around, just hated my life so much when i'm in pri 1. yes, i hate that moment that is the year i will never forget. 1999 ( this is the year) what to do? There will always be up & down in life, aijehhhh. I think i shall stop typing alrdy, my finger is rotting soon. -__-

Exhausted

I've nothing much to say neither do i need to explain that much. i've told everything to you clearly, Everything lies on me okay? I don't have time for myself neither do i've time for you, yes so what if i'm being selfish. I realize you're so much similar to my ex, yes so MUCH. You said you've changed? Nah i don't think you did, this is just by saying? hah, noted. Ohwell, sometime you gotta understand girls abit more lah, perhaps i think i'm too rushed into this relationship. both of us don't even know well each other, this is the very wrong move we've start at first. So afterall it causes so much hurts, whatever it is. Whatever you want to say go ahead, i don't wanna give a damn anymore. whatever things you did is casuing me to hate you even more, immatureness. Blame myself, for going into this relationship too early. It's too late to say all those.

Anyway, i just wished you could find another 1000 times better girl then me alright. i'm tired. really tired, please don't come my place anymore. i'm not worth for you to do this. Perhaps you should listen to the advise that your friends have given you. they're always right. I'd wish you can stop everything now & go on with your life. Whats more, I gotta tell you i hate irritation, the more you text me the more i'll hate you more. i don't want to but, if you choose this path don't blame me for being wicked. & pls don't stop whatever now & move on alright, there isnt a need to explain why my feeling have faded too. & many more. I don't want to elaborate any further.

Takecare then!

Sometime you gotta know this, different shape who is really your true friends.

Different shape whether they're worth to be your friends,

different shape if they really treat you as their friends. Sometimes, some ppl can behave damn childishly till you can get pissed off. Ohwell friends do come & go, there is no FOREVER in friendship's dictionary. Be smart, some ppl tends to be v fuck up . & some ppl not even worth to be treated good, will there be karma strikes back to them? I bet so, Seriously, i had enough sometimes. You're selfish, really selfish. You only thought of yourself but not ppl around you, c'mon when can you treat ppl nicely? I bet you will never be, bastards. PLS THINK OF OTHERS OKAY, YOU'RE OLD ENOUGH TO THINK. MOTHERFUCKER.