Rewind

Thinking back to the past, i realise i'm so dang stupid. Yeah stupid enough to trust someone so easily, Having fickle minded. Ohwell, I'm tired like seriously. dad was worry, scared tht i will be a L. Cause of some sort of reason, well. Funny thoughts i have last year, hmm. Time passes so fast? I'm thinking why would i spent my time & effort to make all those stupid card, tubes & cookies for those worthless guys. sigh!

But well, i gain nothing. I don't trust them either, cherish when it's lost. Craps! tearing like mad, for those worthless guy. Finding people out to console me, Yes i always find manfred i remembered. A call & he is there to listen to me, thanks buddy :D I share everything with him, & he said i'm stupid enough to patch back with the worthless guy. Yes i'm indeed stupid lah, but well, it's over. I hated some of my past, but i will never forget something there is once i didn't cherish somebody in my life. 7 months of R/s goes down the drain, all thanks to my stupid conselling. Arghs! I shouldn't think back anw, seens it already past for 1year past.

i misses secondary sch life, i so wanna rewind my past. but i know it's impossible, I miss rowing dragonboat every saturday. Play netball with the girl, & also staying back late to do D&T which is a very stress thing. Mr azizi always called us, but what we do is pon ten! heh, still he is good enough to give us a A for D&T. Kinda miss sleeping in class during maths lesson, & there goes mrcheong saying us a pig! & i'm the only one who flunk my maths! Made cheong disappointed, aw!

I miss studying in ITE too, Always late for lesson. I love study POA & OFC, but i dislike the rest of the subject. Have to memorize lots of notes & stuffs, I miss the fish& chip in school. It's totally Awesome but tht uncle is stingy! tsk. I love drinking fruit juice, water melon with carrot! heh (: But well, i can't go back tht school. Netball training maybe :\ Alot of bad things happen in 2009, really bad. Now it's a brand new year, think i should just focus whatever i have to now. I've got lots of outing to plan, Class BBQ, CE&CC outing, Girls outing. Gosh! & tht lazy bum elaine don't wanna help me out. Tsk!

I wanna drink, drank & drunk again. Humph. Yishan is down, karim too! so am i, reason being ? Sometimes i'm super confused, I aint strong enough to overcome everything. I always told them how to be strong, but i can't apply tht to myself. I'M WEAK! There is 2 choice of love. Should i choose choice 1 or choice 2? Maybe choice 2? sigh! Everything is impossible!

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