during YOG, haha! it's kinda long actually.. but still, i think it's nice :D

Okay, after yesterday inccident.. I think we're okay already bah, so now what i'm suppose to do is to work hard, i mean study hard to aim for higher nitec b'cos there is some reason behind it.. Yeah, Went over to buona vista yesterday to find her. after that we settle everything & i hope it's fine now, i'm sorry as well as i'm angry.. so yah, went her house chat & watched funny movie. I don't know what's that movie called, but it's cantonese i think (:

Around 9 plus, accompany her eat at her house downstair then bus home.. Mum asked me to buy bread as she wanted to eat, okay all the shops have closed cause it's already very late.. So i went to seven-eleven to buy the bread but i can't get the red bean bread that she want. okay, then 1 disgusting thing that ever happen in my life.. I just feel like puking after seeing that, & i'm super scared at that time.. I was like walking happily, then i was about to reach my house downstair then got 1 aunty give me a pathetic look from far, so i thought what happen.. Then when i reaches my house downstair there is this ahpeh shitting just directly infront of me, i saw that shit coming on from his butt, i was like WTH. I'm so scared, cause i'm alone you see.. Then he was like shitting down there like no body business, is like so many ppl walking here & there & there is a camera just above him.

I feel so disgusted & scared.. I kept pressing the lift but the lift seems to be so damn slow which i don't know why either.. Then i called her up, talked tilled i got home. I told her & mum about that inccident then their reaction was like "yuck" gosh, i'm like so suay. & yeah the lift suddenly stop at 4rd floor yesterday, then is like nobody lah I thought was that uncle who press it, but when i see here & there it's really like nobody. Fish!

As for today, i was late for school again. Lesson start @8 & i reached school by 830am cause i can't wake up. sigh! then after that when i was inside the lift, there go the lift again.. that lift happen to stop at 3rd floor this time round, i was like wth why issit again.. What happen sial? Tsk! 2nd time already lah, wth! Sigh.. I don't know what to do either, grh. Ohyesh there is training later & it's last training before match.. Monday ITSC already, i'm scared eh. Sigh! I don't wanna lost..

tmr there is work briefing.. Ohno! then after school have to do project, haha! But i still have tons of house chores to do. there is work on sunday again, yeah! but it's so damn early 6am must reach padang.. Have to wake up super early, tmr gotta do house chores. & i'm gonna revise my work already. Haha! i don't wanna flunk my BEO )=

Yesterday..

Kiamin did something bad, really bad..
Everything happen to be like ... i don't know what either, It just so sudden.. I shouldn't have said such a hush words. But what done can't be undone, I feel so terrble now.. Suck it, I bet this time round we're drifting apart. What happen?! sigh, yesterday @kallang was another inccident. & now it happen another inccident which make me feel so.... Grh!

I feel so emotional in class just now, repeatedly telling myself how much i hated my life.. I've been hearing this song "YESTERDAY" repeatedly, cause there is a reason behind. Well, i made her feel so .. Fuck my fucking mouth, kiamin you suck big time.. I've got no mood to do anything now, Maybe everything she said is what she think. but not me.. I'm lost, i wanted to throw my temper by throwing shots of netball. But sadly, miss regina don't have netball in the stuff room. Broken dream, yeah.. I believe this, " happy on the 1st day, sad on the second day" nothing in this world call "PERFECT". Reddish, swallon eyes. I hate it, make me feel so awful infront of friend. But i can't control my emotional, I'm sorry, really sorry!

I'm trying my very best to change everything, but.. Haish! Things came up to my mind, i've to endure. I'm not gonna fall easily.. People always said happy go lucky, so fake! Lock myself in my room, listening to song.. This feeling of mine feel so sucky, who know? Who cares? no one .. I know i'm nothing.. Yes nothing, i'm happy at the outside, but i'm sad in the inside. I've a weak heart, very weak heart.. Everything was just like a broken dream..


I'm sorry! i may not be the one, i may not be the best.
I know i can't replace her, well..
I'm afraid to lost you, but still i've got no choice.
It can't be force anyway,
I miss everything in the past. those happy moment,
not the sad moment.
Even though what i said now it's useless i know..
I'm sorry.
I love you...

Need hell lots of time..

I don't have the time to post recently, Have been busy working, schooling & training.. Alright, talk about work. I've been standing from morning tilled night, alright not me alone perheps everybody working down there at jurong point. first day of work, someone didn't broke her promise to come down to jurong point. Haha! Well, thanks.. Time past super slow on the first day, work at stepper area is a tough want. So many kiddo, but they are cute. I've taken a picture with this lil girl who look so cute & sexy.. I shall post that picture some time when i'm free haha!

Second days, someone went to kusu island. Bet she really enjoyed herself haha! Alright, second day was fun.. I did enjoy myself working there, knew lots of friends, & yeah second day time past really fast. I'm awaiting to go home, haha. Everything went well, but i missed the takwando show on that day cause i went makan with friends. Hmm.. sigh! but i get to see it on the 3rd day, well.. Eunice & i have a free meal from 1 clique, i ate subway cookie instead cause i'm so damn bloody full. Oh, but thanks yeah? haha!

3rd day time past damn fast, She came JP find me then went home next.. the next day i gave BEO a missed. So tired, so i was late for my lesson. Aw! Teacher was like saying, " why you bother to come for my lesson, seen it only left half an hour." I was like " uh, tired ma.." haha! Had BEG test then after that went to do project, I look so unglam by wearing sneakers to school.. So ugly, went home changed then head to NUH to find her. Watched her swim then head down to queenstown after that, had dinner there & chat. Saw alot of stuff i wanted to buy but i need to wait for pay. Hmm, I'm finding for vans shoes.. Grey ladies cutting. Tsk! but i can't find it there, so sad..

Went home late, ate, bath & went bed next.. Yawns! today got training, i'm so so so tired.. Alright gtg, will be back blogging pictures later on. Bye!