想念你

I dream of you calling? Issit you? I heard your voice, I miss you so much. It have been a week plus since you have gone to another world.

-missing your present
-your smile
-your hugs
-your skinny little hands

This year Chinese new year, it will be a lot different compared to past few years. Every year, everyone of us will bring 2 big oranges to your hse to 拜年. But this year? Haiz, every one is missing you so much. Hoping that you will be around, you will always be that pretty ah ma in everyone's heart.

It's the mid-January, my application for school gonna closed soon. Gonna settle it this week once and for all! Hoping that I will work harder than before. Ah ma blessed me ok!

您还过的好吗？

亲爱的婆婆，
今天是您的头七日。想知道您在天堂还过得好吗？还习惯那里的日子吗？ 我们大都很想你哦！ 看得出最近二叔叔他非常的伤心，初三就是他的生日了。我们会帮他庆祝的，请您放心！ 但是婆婆， 我们大家都很想你，我们都好希望您会快点出现在我们的梦里。看到您和公公又可以在一起，我感到很高兴。那当然我还会抱着一颗依依不舍心情啦，我真的很怀念小时候的日子。 每当您家楼下有 PASAR MALAM 的时候， 您都会给我钱叫我和 KAIWEN 去买我们想要吃的东西。 但现在，我只能在梦里看见你！我真的很想再次拥抱您永远也不要和您分开，婆婆我们大家都很爱您。 您感觉得到吗？多么希望理天里有INTERNET， 能然我们跟你联络啊。haiz， 是我想太多了！ 婆婆您一定要保佑我下星期六没有做工以为我很想去买你喜欢吃的WAFFLE 来拜您啊，你一定要保佑ok？

我爱你。

RIP Grandma ):

It have not been a v good start of the month, on sunday after dying my hair rushed all the way down to hospital to see my granny. She keep on saying strange stuffs & remind my uncles to do this and that. I thought she was just talking nonsense, But uncle asked all of us to stay by her side till 11 plus. & that was when i am seeing her suffering, having difficulties in breathing. So that's was when she left us by the time of 2330, her oxygen level went super low. She didn't responds when everyone is calling her to breath, I missed her! Everyone was crying, the painful side that she waited everyone to reach hospital & she was announced dead..

She teared, she don't bare to leave us. But she have got no choice, went to choose her coffins & stuffs. Home next, & the next morning went over to her house to pack her stuffs. Strange things is, godsis found her watch & the time stopped at 2330. Is her death time, so when alden came he asked sis to go into the toilet where granny kept his toys. No one knows where the toys are, but alden do. Sigh, pray & everything.. Seeing granny's photo & lying inside the coffins really breaks everyone of us down.

I hoped that she can get back tgt with grandpa as they have been separated for so many years! Today is the last day i see grandma, i feel like hugging her, but now i can't. I only can see her photos, I wished i can dream of her. Hoping that she can tell me not to worry as she is v blessed staying in heaven tgt with gods. Tmr gonna collect her bones, I love you granny. Thanks for doting everyone of us. Seeing us grow up one by one!