Time brings me back to the past!

I really really really regret! I'm reading back my past post, sigh too many things to regret! I dislike this feeling. & tmr will it be my happy day or a sad day once agn? Sighed, i really really really hope things could rewind to where i first met you. Yes, so many months had past. & we haven been talking & contacting each other for ages, i miss those time we used to text each other. But not NOW! ):

I finally see who are my true friends, who are not (:

Ohwell, nvm!

I'm feeling so weak now, not as energetic as before!

Sometime, i don't know who to trust, Sometime, i think human are weird.
Why do i say so, altimately every words i said gonna be rubbish? nah, if you doubt me then why asked? answering back so sarcastic, oh fine then no point saying if you don't believe it's your choice & it's my own thing i've the right to do whatever i want plus i dislike ppl to disturb.. Another things is i feel so dumb sometimes always get those unlucky thing one, & it's the 3rd time! Whtsoever, i ain't gonna bothered anw. There is nothing so what for i scared ppl pin-point me, okay.

Sometimes i'm like a fool lah, whenever things got worst then i know. But also counted half lucky lah, at least i didn't fall into track this time (: hehe. I read through my post, & i think i'm sometimes foolish? argh! But well ppl there is always once in a life time being a FOOL. nvm, learned from mistake. Plus i admit i ain't mature to handle my emotional, tht's true. I always goes with my heart not my brain, i never think for the future. Sighed~ But sometimes i don't know why i still think of you, ohbitch. But everything is like, shit lah for now. Tsktsktsk. I'm waiting, waiting for what 3 more days. But i don't look forward to it, but finally i'm going 18th after so longgggggggggggggggggggg of waiting!

I dislike ppl to control me like seriously, & i've got a vvvv hot temper!
Ohpls don't let me see your number appeared agn ]:
I think i should get myself a new com, this com pissed me off~

Re-do, Re-read, Re-learnt, Re-try , Re-start! GO...

I seriously dislike sunday! Cause it's a boredom, it've been long seen i went granny house already! I miss mahjonging with her anw, but well. I can't believe tht granny is 94 or 95 this year & she can happily sitting for around 6-7 hours on the chair just to play mahjong. 4896! Lol, okay. What now, I'm just lag of something! Argh nvm, Seriously sometimes i think some guys are really annoying! Their immature-ness seriously make me vomit blood, don't want reply already kept sent sent sent! Bloody hell -.-

Grh, &&& this few days seriously nt having any good mood. Family alot of problems, & i seriously wanted to move house badly ): Ohwell, yesterday was granny anniversary. Went to pray & then head home, i don't know what i ate yesterday my stomach pain the whole day lah. Tsk, around evening i went to find D & we went around like east area. Went to kkcc then next to tampiness, had carl's junior for dinner! Full die me, the burgur super BIG! Walked around & home. Lucky today don't have any renovation, if not noisy ttm! Rest at home the whole day as my stomach gave me problems! Sighsighsigh, I feel Happy abt something but i don't feel excited at all. whtevr!

I began to love toy poodles puppy! Like so cute only lah (: But i still prefer white puppies or snoozer! :D I want to get myself a puppies, yesyesyes!! It's a must, but dad hates puppies! ): Sometimes i think dad is so funny lah, today when i woke up i ate a cake only.. Then he asked me why don't want eat porridge i say no appetitie then he asked me want some bun i make hot for you i said ok. when i ate the bun half way he asked me "why don't want eat porridge eat bun" It's like LOL! then sometimes i dislike his vvv HOT TEMPER! Sickening can! I got irritated when he started to vent his attitude! Wtf only...

The same things happen agn, i think something is really wrong. I just sense it, but i doubt so. But Strange, really strange. I dislike this to repeat agn pls, God bless! I'm stuck at home for many days as something is not right for mum. There comes agn, shitty! I really hope things will go fine for now but sigh~ Bad to worst? Fuck!

I went to simei ITE this morning to watch ITSC. College central doing a great job, tmr will be FINAL. Jiayou girls, Your are doing super great today! & I miss netball training & tournament really badly! But well, time flies. I intend to re apply for higher nitec next year, IF can. Alright, had some gathering with them today, then off to find mum & dad then homed. Dad is nice just tht he is far too naggy :x ohwell. Things cocked up really badly recently, i just want some peace. & i want faster move house!!!

Omgosh, i can't stop eating recently. plus i can feel my fats! double chin is coming out, argh, & i wanna go gym like now now now. I want back my 47kg me ): Everybody said i'm getting fatter, plus i've got tummy now! & my thigh is fat like don't know what, so unbalance! Should i find something to do to kill my afternoon time? Yes i think i should ! Well, I can't stand my weight! Tsktsktsk. I can't fit into my shorts already lah, & anybody know how to do resume? ): HELP HELP HELP!

How i wish i've a elder brother or sister ):

Time!

Finally after so long i get to gather with sec Netball girls today for dinner! So so so happy indeed cause it've been a vvvv long time seen we last gathered. Tht reminds me of chalet! Ohwell time past pretty fast tilled now everybody is busy with their own stuff. Olvl, Nlvl, Alvl & even poly. For me is only work. hahaha! (: Ohwell, sometimes ppl do complaint about work, why? Boss being stupid, Customer complaint OR rather dislike ppl who are working tgt with you. Hmmm, i used to work in admin & i recalled back seriously suck to the core! Damn it, the place with no reception AT ALL, can't use internet plus the aunties there throw me handfull of work & asked me to complete like in ONE DAY! I done one mistake kana scold, Damn stupid! luckily i leave early if not it's a torture!

Sometimes i really regret for not studying well enough LAST YEAR. Netballers are having fun & now i think i'm drifting away from them like far far apart lahs ): Super sad! Hmmm I'm back to the old KIAMIN! (: I learned frm my mistake, History will not be repeated. Once is ENOUGH already. & i will not be tht stupid anymore to believe on your trick. Hoheha. Bastard! Ohwell, i'm gonna FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS! Mean time, i'm gonna catch some sleep already. Eyebag coming out ): Goodnight!


DREAM WILL ONLY COME TRUE IF YOU DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

Human hard to be,
being too nice to ppl also not good, being bad to ppl also not good.
Sigh, what's with the world.

Something isn't right.

It's either i do it or i die,
Obstacles do come often. Got used to it, tsk. But i want my bestie H to be back to himself, I really don't know what happen to you. You are always the strong one, you are always there to motivate me, you are always there to hear my problems. But i'm sorry i'm not there to listen to your doubts. But i really hope you are back to who you are, the bestie H i know, i know it might be diff. As army stuff pulls your emotion dwn, but listen no matter what be strong! Rmb our dream is to open a bakery shop tgt? Rmb you said what to me before? I always rmb this, but do you? ): Sigh! Life is fill with up & downs, I may not understand you well. I just wish you can pass your driving licence (: Contact me soon pls~ :D & i realise i never take any picture with bestie H ):

Ohwell, i went for hair cut today @bishan, was a not bad one (: After tht went to grab some food & head dwn to slimming centre. Bus back home next, went to bought my shoes as everything spoilt -.- & i drank my favourite milk tea, saw someone today. Kinda shocked* but i'm super blurr at times. Hahaha! Alright.. My pimple hurts me like craps! Bullshit.

I hope everything will be fine soon, & i'll be back sooon! (:

I went facial today, & it's bloody killing me! The lady squeeze my pimple until bleed plus now is super reddish. But i love the mask she put on my face super cooling, after facial i went to see my face omfg it's red like a lobster ): Ohwell..... Barradge next (:

If time could rewind, i wish to stop at .........................

ihtcrtwiwwimwy.

imsfma, but

IMISSYOU!

Melody owner.

Melodyyy (:

Too much things happen during june time, seriously it sucks tons. But well, there are happy & unhappy moments. hahs, alright. I guess i seriously need my hair cut badly, plus facial ! Ohwell, I kept eating non-stop recently.. Strawberry yogurt! Nice ttm, hmmm.. I wish my bestie is back to himself, i really wish. Hope tht he is fine now, sigh~ & surprisingly i'm reading story book! Eclipse, haha (: Day after day, time after time. I've got alot of stuffs to do now, Photoshoot on saturday!? Can't wait, i hope sisters will be able to tag along with me.

My tummy is on fire now, causes of this is the super spicy fish ball toufu! Aw, i miss all my friends, Slackers, netballs, ITE cliques. plus i miss aunt cooked laksa & shark fin soup, sigh~ Today gonna rest early lo, too sleepy already. Sometimes i just feel like punching ppl, annoying ttm. Blahs, alright back to my story book. Goodnight!

Ohgosh i think i'm gonna fall sick soon, 2 sick cats in my house. argh!

Labels: If i knew it earlier ....

sometimes i kinda miss my past, but i know it wouldn't be back like how it was now.

i thought i can be vv happy,

i thought i can be strong,

i thought i can let go of you easily,

i thought everything will be fine real soon

i thought i can stop thinking about you

BUT

i'm wrong!

i'm so weak, i can't forget you? i don't know why?

i ain't tht strong, emotion brings everything down now.

I miss your calls every night, BUT

i don't know what happen? It's just out of sudden we nv

contact each other ):

I miss all those happy & sweet moment,

BUT

your action is asking me to let go! ):

Every story there is always a ending.

I lost the trust on you
tell me how to gain it back?
Certain things i can't let go.
Falling for a person is easy, letting go is difficult.
I don't know what happen recently,
everything seems changing.
Plus i don't know why i kept waiting for your calls
& i know you wouldn't call me at all.
Some things are to be kept, somethings are to be thrown.
I don't know what you are doing, i really don't know.
What is true & what is fake?
I hate you treating me on/off.
You can be nice, you can be evil.
You make me fall, & you just go.
You are good at the start, but you are bad at the ending.
Everything you does it hurts deeply.
I'm trying to be strong, but i'm still weak.
Letting go is difficult ):

i think having a driving licence is cool, Sister drove me to eat dou hua today (: & she drove me home after tht, we've some Htht. thanks sister <3 Then after finished everything went home & have my shower, i seriously don't know what are human thinking. I hate mind game, all the while this is just a childish game tht human are playing. "Feeling" Who knows will this hurt the opposition party? Get this clear, wake up your idea. Humph.

Not much time left, i seriously got no time. & i wanted to play netball so badly, i miss studying life. I don't know why when i'm working i miss studying, when i'm studying i miss working. Tsk. sometimes i gotta be nasty abit, Life is complicated everything is fill with ups & down we can't really predict what will happen tmr, good or bad we doesn't know. & family stuff is going to flood my brain, i wonder when can this thing stop. in life there is always good & bad, sigh!

Ohyeah, i just love going gym! But i dislike muscle ache, damn bitch can?
I NEED TO BE CAREFUL!

Once agn i'm a stupid.
Ohwell too many things happen recently, i think this 6/7 month i'm really really sua enough! sigh, i gotta say you're sucha "bitch" heheh, but well i TOLD MYSELF I'M GONNA BE HAPPY/STRONG w/o YOU! fuck off (:

& I'm too soft-hearted, too easy to trust somebody! but get this clear, you climb over my head you will get your fucking retribution soon. Plus super hate myself for regretting one thing in my life, super regret.. Sigh! but well, things just happened like this i'm so lost. Emotional broke dwn, but i told myself i gotta be strong to overcome everything! I miss TBC ): nvm.. Regret is one thing, emotional control is another, still i'm vvvvv HAPPY!! You fucking make me xiaoji & you spoiled everything in my life, thanks so much "bitch". chillchillchill i'm so down tilled i went to msg my oreo & natsoh! & i've a secret partner now :D anwanw! thanks peeps, doing mask is so so so cooling & relaxing, & i fucking wanna get rid of my big & stupid pimples plus my oily face! gotta go grab some sleep soon :D


Label: I told myself i gotta be strong, you sucks tons!