I'm sorry dad, i know i'm creating more troubles to you. But pls understand me, i'm tired of every single things i know you are too. But let me off for some days, I'm just too stress. It's not i wanna stay out late but i just dislike being at home seeing both you & mum like this you ustd? It's a torture, & my head is bursting. Sigh! Emotinal break down recently, thanks to you for being so caring at the start & making me have a little feeling for you then end up you are giving me all those fucking shits! Ohman, you are so cruel. I wonder why you changes so fast, i missed playing sudoku w u ): But well, seem like tht day is the last day & shall say goodbye now. You are treating me hot & cold, Melody i can throw it away anw!

Thanks for breaking me down instead of being there you add more troubles to me. I guess i can hardly see your calls now. You are making me hate you? Ohwell, good then! I wish i've never know you before or rather text with you either. best track i've fall into! Bullshit, stop acting like you care while you don't even. Enough of all your craps shit! If you have the guts you face it & say out all the truth then you hiding it. >:(

Fire + Fire = BIG Fire.
Go be who you are, Promise are always meant to be broken.
Suck it! I HATE YOU! ):

Thanks manfred & ahblack for slacking with me & hearing all my craps,
Thanks aloysius for sending me home & end up walking home from hougang to tpy!
Thanks my beloved sisters Weiqi & kezia for hearing all my problems.
Thanks upline for the motivation (zan lai)
Thanks Jason toh for those motivation words,
Thanks those friends who are there for me.
Love you ppl many many,

My gastric gave me hell, i don't know why i ever do tht but today i did it!
Ohwell, de-stress. Hmmm!

Stop Acting Like You Care!

Today whole day was totally craps! like seriously?

I don't know how to express my feeling now, but it really really make me feel like shouting, yelling out loud. Everything just cock up so LAST MINUTE? yes, bad things came to me straight. What happen? Sigh! COLLAPSED ah, i don't want. I don't want this to happen, just left 7 days more. Endure!!


If a person who play sports just happen to give up easily like this, she herself will dragged her team down & she got no sport man ship in herself. Life is fill with up & down regardless what thing, familys, friends & others. Opportunities comes only once, if you missed it that it. & you i told myself i'm so disappointed in YOU? Why you wanna do this? Will you gain some good stuff? Wth? I starting to lost trust in you! I just too easy to trust on somebody, too easy!! & somebody said this i'm putting my heart & soul to do this trade, oh well since when you did? You fucking shut off your phone & fucking waste my time & fucking spoilt my mood. Yeah~ This is how i can trust you huh? REFLECT, WHY IN THE FIRST PLACE YOU SIGN MEMBER FORM? WHY!? Try to ask your self.


It's gonna be 2 days already, plus everything you said was a lie? Can i trust you once more? Action speaks louder then words, results speak louder the action. Sometimes you are just acting pitiful to make ppl care for you & i'm the stupid one who got up you trick eh. Fucker! Why just happen to be today, everything cock up so suddenly!! ): & YOU pls don't come & pissed me off, If you don't know anything just STFU!!


My emotional control sucks just bare with it.
After hearing every single things i'm so damn speechless.
I'm losing trust on you!
MOTIVATE MOTIVATE MOTIVATE,
Feel so down tilled i find ppl to motivate me,

Stop saying ppl while you yourself are the same, so what if you are old birds. But stop teasing ppl & also stop looking down on ppl. i'll prove you wrong one day! Say behind my back act like nothing happen. oh thank u v much!

If you have a goals just do it, tell yourself die die must do it. No matter how tough it is just force yourself to do it, you will sure success on day if you have the DON'T GIVE UP ATTITUDE! (: & i wish tht time will never never rewind, i don't want those bad memories to happen agn. I want it to stop at those time where i've with all my girlfriends ):

Time flies, & everything is changing. So freaking fast?

WHAT A DAY?!!!

DISAPPOINTED!

sigh~

Sometimes i might not be understanding enough,
Sometimes i just got mad over a lil things,
Sometimes i having hard time to control my temper & emotional,
Sometimes things got so cocked up & i'm lost!
Sometimes i really feel like expressing out my feel to?
Sometimes this ain't the track i wanted to go,
Sometimes i feel like this is sucha bitch!
Sometimes i dislike everything tht is happening nowadays.


I'm so sick now, down with flu plus my tummy sometimes gave me problems.
I've to endure, 6 months!
& I'm so worried now, worried about what? Alot alot of stuff,
My emotional break down tht time & it's totally suck it,
Pains! & everything, tears, shout, emo. All the craps came out!
I believe everybody have a dream, whether they want it come true
OR NOT is still up to them to decide. But life is all about choices not about Fate.
Sometimes i'm really wondering, Why, what the fuck am i doing?
I've to refresh & make myself awake, plus this is getting bigger!
Ohno~ I seriously dislike this!!!

Time flies & it's gonna be july soon, Sometimes i just HATE my ATTITUDE!
No doubt towards parents or friends my attitude suck like no body business,
& now i'm falling into a track, Argh! I dislike this to be a playing game,
Sigh~ Sometimes when things are around them they don't treasure,
sometimes when they lost it they regret ttm! This are humans, I'm so worried now.
Super no mood, WHERE ARE YOU?! ):
Why my temper so hot nowadays?!


WAITING!!!

HORRIBLE FEELING,

Fucking NOT in ANY GOOD MOOD!

How to express my feeling now?

To who?

HAPPY 18th to ELAINE ONG.
Alright went to sukura to celebrate elaine birthday today,
Ate alot of food, so damn full..
After tht went to buy ticket for karate kid, super nice! It just trying to tell us on a nv give up attitude you will surely succeed one day! & he did it, ohwell. nice, went take neoprint & then to company after tht. Ohwell i'm so damn no mood now, stomach giving me problem again ):

KIAMIN FUCKING DISLIKE LIAR, SO PLS DON'T EVER LIE TO HER.
& What is TRUST? I dislike the playing game, hmmm.. SUCK IT!
SIGH ):

I don't know what the hack am i doing?
ahhh, but i know something. I super hate this feeling,
I think i'm gonna give a break, yes seriously. & i miss watching movie, went to catch a movie on tuesday. KILLERS, not bad show (: it've been so long seen i last watched movie, I really ENJOY! :D But stress stress stress & more stress coming, this days i feel so not right. imy? Argh, I'm so complicated now! Sigh! wtfffff? Not in a super good mood ):

woke up, shower & off to granny's place today.
Having some gathering, buffet makes me fat! Plus i can see lucas & lil genevive (: I'm so envy with lucas eye lasher, super long & he is only 6 month old. So adorable, genevive is super busy today. Having hard time to ask her sit down properly & watched tv, played with her & she is so damn ang mo-ish now..

Brought her to playground, climbing up & down with her like mad. old le, it've been super long seen i last did tht. Accompany her play tilled she is tired, back to granny's place & baby alden is here.. Both of them is super cute la, & alden is handsome today. Ohwell, aunt drove me to Yck station to take a train, trained to sembawang to wait for gus, then to woodland. Played few rounds of netball, super fun time crazy time.. alright, after tht lefted as there is something on.. Got so dman pissed off, tsk! Fucking test my patience, hate to got misunderstood can!?

Next went to somewhere after tht Fly kite, thanks to Oreo & bestie for helped (: I can see my doramon flying high! went to lao pa sa eat & homed. Super sticky plus tiring!! Alright, there is too much things in my mind seriously.. ):

Waiting waiting still waiting,
why isn't you?

This picture was taken many days ago, Mr lai birthday. I did not upload all as there is some problem so to prevent my blog for too wordy, i upload some of them (:

Kezia, me & my oreo~

Kezia, zan, oreo (:

Junhong behind being a passerby ? :O

Alright i went to company ystdy, nothing much also. went to Changi airport to sent kenny off after tht orea & me accompany ah lai to Tan tock seng to take MC. At first when we reached was still okay, while waiting for ahlai to finished seeking the doctor there is something happen which got me a shocked, frightening i should said, Oreo & me was kinda scared got the phobid of going hospital ): Saw alot of ambulance in & out plus there is this women sitting beside us behaving very strangely, so we swap places to sit. After not long we saw smth & this is much more scary then anything. I'm so scared to go hospital la, & TTS is the most scary place ever? Very wulu want, sigh! Ohwell, i've grown fatter. Like seriously i need to cut fats now, i can't stand my weight ): sigh! Eat too much supper already, controlling diet is hard ~

I'm afraid this gonna be another trick agn ):

damn i hate this feeling,

Sometimes i'm just being stupid la. Tsk!

Fish, what is this man?

New year, New month, New Start.

Sales month had just ended, & today is the first day of new sales month.
Yey! It's a sad things tht i can't get to go up to THE ROCK stage on the 12th june seminar, it's a new place & i think it will be freaking grand (: Alright, Upon hearing everything i've made up my mind & i can feel it with my own feeling. Ohwell, this is just a childish game but nvm. Hmmm finally genevive, lucas & cousins are back from USA last few days & saturday there will be gathering can't wait to carry lil naughty genevive (: Just miss her so!

Alright, time past really fast. it's half a year already, & i always kana jip by parents every night. WHERE ARE YOUR PAY? NEVER GIVE PAPA MAMA, ohno! hun luan, Jiayou jiayou! (: I know my blog abit wordy, but just bare with it will be back with lots of photo as my com giving me problem can't upload photo! ): Tmr is gonna be a packed day for me, Jon's chalet, netball tournament plus company. Ohno, which one should i go? mini grouping as well, aw I've time management problem! ):

有一种爱叫做放手

So what if my social life goes down?
It doesn't matters you anw, ohwell.. I seriously hate guys who is immature & ununderstanding want, it's like seriously la. They can be who they are, but childish thinking.. I getting to dislike relationship life agn, sometime i really feel damn stupid, got damn sad over somethings. What's the point? Why should i? I kept asking myself does it worth it? no it don't, nvm. I'm tired anw, facing all this crappy shit..

Well i've been eating F essence recently, i think it really helps my blood circulation.. I wanna buy B&H to clear away all my bloody pimples.. Should i try imu6? hmm, nvm.. I've been stressing myself, telling myself what to do. why i do this? Argh shag, too late to regret. & KIAMIN SEET hate quarrels, like seriously. Spoilt my mood, Just b'cos of a word YOU.. Shit this okay, i've nv ever had a gd life in love life.. This is suckie, but nvm 1 yr i'm gonna break record for not having any relationship for 1 yr.. Things always got cock up last minutes plus i hate you like seriouly, THE HATES is GETTING STRONGER! Whtevr, i miss running 2.4 i miss napfa.. Sigh! i miss schooling though but i dislike EXAMS..

Kiamin gonna sleep early tonight >:(
PISSED PISSED PISSED~